So, for the next few days, it will be south of -20C during the day and south of -30C overnight. Last night was “definitely a warm socks and sleeping toque” kinda night.
I did get some sleep but mostly my cold feet kept me up . . . not my reluctance or anything, my feet were actually cold.
It was almost -20C in my house last night, so it was also a “turn the fridge off and prop open the doors to get the cold INTO the freezer” . . . kinda night.
I can do this lifestyle, I can make it work, but my desire to do so is quickly leaving me.
I still have the determination to push through and the willingness to do what I need to do to get through this winter, it is just that my want to do this has left me.
Any sort of fun-factor or just take it in stride as left me. I hate the cold, I mean I really hate the f*cking cold. I can handle it, I know what to do, but I hate it.
Any thoughts of modifying Wanda so as to be more comfortable just seems like me making a long-term home out of Wanda, and that is not what I want.
I have depleted my cash reserves to pay my credit cards off, so “just getting a place” would require me to save up . . . which would take a month at least.
That would put me getting a place for February 1 and . . . well . . . by that point, why bother screwing up my plans for that.
As with other cold-snaps this one will not last all that long, a few days. By Friday it should warm up to -18C.
So I should be able to get the truck started so as to be able to drive to Banff for my Christmas Break.
If I have to I can jump-start the truck with Wanda’s batteries . . . I’ve done that before.
Again, I know what to do, I can get through it, I just don’t want to. Having said that, it is only two months and then it starts to get better.
January and February are cold, but things will start to warm up in March; by April we are back to Fall/Spring mode.
Again, I can do this, I will do this, I will get through another winter in Wanda, I will just grumble more.
Somehow, someway I really don’t want to do another winter in Wanda. Only time will tell and necessity will dictate if I will or will not do another winter in Wanda.
Just get through this next bit and deal with the future when it comes. Dream for the Future, Plan for the Mid-Term, but Work on the Now. (Just bundle up).