I will admit that I am at a place where I need to deal with my frustration over this perceived setback. I have been here before, and I will be here again; I know this.
The mind and heart (for lack of a better expression) are not always on the same page, or in the same place at the same time.
Intellectually you can know that you are still moving forward, and still making progress, yet you may feel like you are not, like life is stagnating, or even moving backwards.
You can know that you are in a much better place than you were, say a year ago, and certainly four or five years ago, yet you can still feel like you are stagnating.
You can also know that repairs to your home were necessary and have given you back a certain measure of functionality and hominess to your home, but you can feel like it is a setback on the road to your dreams.
(And then there is the winter without end . . . another topic, for another day.)
I have had my morning cup of coffee and breakfast (a bowl of oatmeal) yesterday and today. It is a nice little slice of “normalcy” that I have been enjoying.
Just like running the furnace for a little bit when I got home yesterday, so I could enjoy a warm evening in my home, without hibernating right away.
It is these nice touches that I have enjoyed and stopped to take notice of, which helps. I know that I will continue to move forward, that my savings will continue to grow.
I will get to a place where I can and will start shopping for land. This I know, one day I will set foot on my land and spend that first glorious night on my land . . . and be home.
I will do those things, but in order to do them, I need to persevere in the here and now. This I can and will do, for I have been here before too.
It is frustrating to see the thing that you have been gauging your progress by (the account balance of your savings) suddenly drop by a stark amount.
I will accept what has happened and I will move forward. For, trudging onwards is the one thing that I do and do well. Sometimes it feels like it is all that I know how to do.
As always: Keep your head up, your attitude positive, and keep moving forward!