It’s funny, I asked for this, I planned for this, I have chosen this, but I am still anticipating and apprehensive about moving out into the great wide open.
Sure I have Wanda, but this is not a weekend but for now on. I will be moving out of a perfectly good room and into my trailer. I will be parking in parking lots and on side-streets and sleeping in a trailer still attached to my truck.
This is a process though; I want to get through it and into a place of financial stability and security. I look forward to the day that the only debts that I have are the current ones, or rather the ones with a fixed end date.
It seems like a lonely process and I know what you’re thinking, just get a girlfriend or roommate. While that is always an option, I somehow end up being the “responsible” one, the one where the bucks and bills stop at.
While it would be great to have someone to go through this process with, I know that this is not a realistic option. I can’t imagine a woman who would want to date a man living so . . . shall we say . . . in an unfixed way.
My ideal woman would be someone who would move into my life and Wanda, focussing on paying down my (and hers) bills . . . I won’t hold my breath waiting for her to appear. I have covered this before but I know what is expected of a man in a relationship; as a provider and you know . . . someone with a house and all that. I get it, I can’t give that, so I won’t waste anyone’s time.
I broke a promise to myself yesterday; I bought the power box, solar panel and charge controller. I was going to wait until I got paid on Monday, but I wanted to have enough time to put it through its paces of charging and using it to ensure that it would suffice before my move out next Saturday. If this power box system is not going to work, I wanted to know sooner rather than later.
The first initial tests worked out great, and with the connection accessories that came with the Solar panel, I was able to make a few quick connect options. This way I can use the charge controller at all times when charging the unit, but have options on how to charge it. I can charge it by: 1) Solar Panel. 2) Cigarette Lighter Plug, 3) AC Adapter plug.
Things are looking up. I am while I am still a little apprehensive I am mostly excited for taking this next step. I know that this is the path I must take to pay down my bills, I just wish I didn’t have to walk it alone.